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January 11th, 2010

12:15 am - Found: Public Notary Rotary...  I'm sick of the bloody gifts my mother keeps sending me. I swear she thinks I'm two years old. What is going on? Speaking of family, my uncle is coming. I'm supposed to give him a place to stay for the nite. So what if I can't spell?  Whatever.... Last night. I don't know why I can't spell night when I really need to.  Anyways. i thought you might want to know my test results got back that old janitor finally fixed the water fountain outside my room. Here's a picture of my cat... >'.'< okay. I have no cat. When I sit next tothis kid he makes oil paintings as of tomorrow. I think that I'm going to break up with my boyfriend... he tells me my eye wonders too much for his liking. I said I could get some corrective glasses or surgery. And as I'm sure you've guessed I've been thinking about us a lot lately. Why is it that eery time something dramatic happens I come running back to you. it seems like people don't know what to talk about when they are around each other and everything seems awkward. Then they act like most of what goes on is messed up because of that and are afraid to talk about it. Know what I mean? Uhh... All those people are creeping me out... Is there something wrong with this pen? I wouldn't know. When I was younger my mom asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I told her to grow up. After that I spent a lot of time in prison. Did you know I spent time in prison? It doesn't matter. I got framed. You know? My lawyer screwed me. I was going to fight it but you know how those things go. Most of the time anymore, I just watch a lot of TV. Do you watch much tv? Like I said I do My brother... made of cheese... gave me about eleven apples . They were all pretty old. I made about 3/4 cup of juice out of it. Given some time I could have raised a tree. I don't know why it writes so crapily/fat right now. Give me a break! Who does he thing he is? Are we talking about the same person? Leave me alone. I really need a good story teller. Once in a while my face feels numb and I get all mumbly... they call me mumbles. that reminds me,  Dr Seuss Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Maggot Dream

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December 22nd, 2009

08:24 am - I am the rhetoric  I just rediscovered this journal.  As mediocre as it may sound, I am glad I have documented some of my past thoughts and doings, even if it is to a non-existing audience. Gives me something to reflect back on and also helps clear the mind of haunting, recurring thoughts.  I usually try not to make the posts too personal, incase there are people who lurk around here and read once in a while. A person's writings usually become uninteresting and boring when it gets too personal and detailed. That's what I feel I am doing right now. Though, that makes me think.... am I writing this journal for an audience or for myself? Oh well. Im in a state of euphoria. I don't know why. Pretending to be asleep until everyone leaves for their daily routine.  I don't want to be questioned as to why I am still up. I don't feel like making up an explanation.  I don't know what to type about, but I'm in a very conversational mood. For some reason I keep analyzing myself. Lots of thinking and thoughts right now, probably why I can't sleep, thus resulting in why I am writing. Usually when I think this much, my mental/emotional status greatly declines, but for some reason it's different this time. Not sure why, but it's fine with me. I like having time to think to myself though.  I enjoy being alone a lot of the time. Lets me just reflect and ponder on things. It's like catching up with an old friend, but inside my head. That doesn't mean I don't like being around other people though!  I wish I was better at putting my thoughts into words. Sometimes I don't even know what I feel though. Sorry for the vagueness, I just wish there was a way to easily come to a realization, of which I don't even know what of. There just seems to be some sort of empty kind of space going on. This is weird and slightly complicated trying to explain this... it probably is reading out to be totally different than what I want it to be. Oh well. I give up...  Looks like this journal entry was meant for me. You poor reader  ; ) Current Mood: awake Current Music: Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Static: Terrible Canyons Of Static / Atomic Clock

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July 30th, 2009

03:04 am BUCKETHEAD IN KC  SEPTEMBER 12th Who's gonna be there? Current Mood: hallelujah

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02:39 am  I've disciplined myself into sitting down and learning Classical Gas. Five hours in and me nubs can barely hold down the strings. Current Mood: determined

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July 14th, 2009

02:55 am  Sometimes I pretend that my car is really a Transformer. Current Mood: imaginative Current Music: Faith No More - Everything's Ruined | Powered by Last.fm

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July 9th, 2009

01:33 am - Type ancestors into wikipedia... interesting. Hi, if you're bored than read this. If you're not bored and you read this, than you will become bored and be glad you read it.       -Thank you.      I had a family reunion last weekend. That means my dad pulls out his briefcase crammed full of family history to show and talk about with the relatives. As I rehear for the (x) time about how my great grandfather was a stow-away and got sent back to Germany and then made his way back over to America again (legally this time).... and that my last name should actually be spelled a different way, but he didn't say anything due to the fear they would be sent back again, I started to think about how the time from when that historical event happened gets farther and farther away with each new generation. And I say in my hollow head to myself, Geez my g²parents really had an exciting life sneaking around to America and starting new lives and all that. And each generation after that seems to get more and more boring... there was no sacrifice that anyone else has made that was important enough to be shared and passed down to the family.      And so I have decided.  To change it up a bit and have something for my future relatives to share.  I will move back from where my ancestors came from and raise a family or cause chaos or something over there. That way there will be something new to add to that pile of family history. Current Mood: indifferent

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June 26th, 2009

12:53 am - GTA Such a good game, we bought two. Ha, just kidding. But it is one of my favorites. It's hard for me to admit this but I was actually I little sad when I finally beat it because I didn't want it to end. The game's that good. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Queens of the Stone Age - Someone's in the Wolf | Powered by Last.fm

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June 25th, 2009

11:56 am Today the world has lost one of the most inspiring, influential and legendary musicians of this time. One of the greatest entertainers and dancers, The King of Pop. He has left his mark on music history and dies still an icon. RIP Michael Jackson   Current Mood: I still can't believe! Current Music: Ratatat - Bruleé | Powered by Last.fm

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June 24th, 2009

02:57 pm   Sam Van Olffen   Current Music: Blue Turtle Seduction - Foot By Foot | Powered by Last.fm

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June 17th, 2009

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02:44 am - I hope for hope I saw a girl with the word "Hope" tattooed on her wrist. It made me wonder what she was hoping for. It almost seems like she's waiting for a positive outcome... which means there's a negative cause, which then just leads me to think she has a real shitty life. Spending your whole life hoping doesn't seem like it would get you anywhere. The word hope just comes off to me as, I'll sit here on my ass and hope everything will turn out right. There's nothing enforced about it. Not like faith. Faith takes action, hope could be like trust... it's not really there, people just presume its existence. AND then when it fails, they lose all hope. Its a big circle really, and I don't have the words of thought to make it end. Shit I don't even know why I'm talking about this anyways. Current Mood: hopeful (lol) Current Music: Fantomas

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May 20th, 2009

07:43 pm - Writer's Block: End of the World as We Know It Robert Frost speculated about the world ending in fire or in ice. Which do you think is likely to end us all: meteorite, global warming, nuclear weapons, zombies, or the superflu? View 502 Answers Zombieeeees. Current Mood: sick Current Music: Tomahawk - Antelope Ceremony | Powered by Last.fm Tags: apocalypse, writer's block

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06:09 am - Sr year  graduating Proj grad elaborate boo hoo tornadoes at school winning throat parties elaborate morning elaborate to be continued at a later (earlier) time Current Mood: pleased Current Music: Noisemaker's Fife

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April 30th, 2009

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06:57 pm - Post #3 Hello there. Been a lotta cool things going on that I want to write about, I've just lacked the time to sit down and type about them. So to ease the reading process I decided to break them up into separate posts in chronological order so that way there isn't a mile long paragraph about all my past doings. Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: Buckethead - Nappler Radar | Powered by Last.fm

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06:57 pm - Post #2    This past weekend two of my friends, my brother and I went to Lawrence, KS to see That1Guy perform. I have been listening to his music for a little over a year and I didn't get the opportunity to see him open for Buckethead last tour so I thought it was right to go out and see him.       There was an opening band I had never heard of, Blue Turtle Seduction. I had a feeling it would be neat because on The Bottleneck's website their genre was classified as "miscellanious" and band with indescribable genres usually aren't boring. I still had no idea what to expect, but once they started setting up I saw a violin, mandolin, a box full of harmonicas and pan flutes and I was then certain that they were going to be awesome and that they were. They had a jam/funk/bluegrass/gypsy sort of vibe if that gets anywhere close to describing them.  The violinist, though, stuck out as the most talented member. He would sweep his fingers across the neck of the violin at super speeds and the most beautiful sounds would come out. He was absolutely astounding.  During the climax of the song he would just close his eyes and seem to just get lost in the moment and play the most incredible, fast, brutal but expressive notes I have ever heard played on a violin. I found it very moving and I want to learn how to play the violin now. That night they gained a fan... I bought their cd ;)         There's something about small shows like these that I absolutely love.  When you are able to be right up to the stage and are able to practically touch the performer(s).  There's just this energy that's present, it beats festivals or shows that require arenas to play and charge you $50 a ticket and you need binoculars to see the performers. This show was only $11 dollars and it was one of the best things I have ever been to.  I liked it better than Tool, Rob Zombie... it was right up there with Buckethead.    Now I truly have great respect for That1Guy. A one-man band. He created his own instruments and has mastered them. He is a hard working musician that deserves triple the amount of acknowledgment than the majority of these lucky world-wide known bands get. He is the definition of a real musician to me. He is probably the nicest person I have ever met, he can make some sweet beats, and he knows magic tricks which I did not find out until the show which makes me like him even more, because I love magic.    We were up front on the right side of the stage and my brother sat on the stage for the whole show.  After T1G finished his encore I told my brother, since he was practically on stage already, to go up there and hug him. So he stood up, tapped T1G on the shoulder, he turns around and my brother opens his arms and says 'Can I have a hug?" with which he responds, " Ah, of course buddy" and then the audience starts clapping and cheering! It was the funniest/neatest thing ever. I asked him how it was, he said sweaty lololol.  My brother has had a big ego ever since then. T1G hung around a while after the show and signed stuff for people. While my brother was still on the stage he managed to snag four cards that were scattered on the stage from one of T1G's magic tricks and us four had him sign them. While he was signing mine I asked him to go to prom with me he said yeah that sounds like fun, when is it? I told him when and he tells me that he couldn't because he had a show in Arizona that night haha Oh well! What a sweet weekend that was.    The next day after the show we went to World's of Fun.  It was pretty cool, except we did a hell of a lot of waiting in lines.  It was perfect weather though, until around 7 ish. Me Jew and Kristin were in line to ride the RipCord [bungie/free falling/swing thing] and freakn lightning comes outta nowhere, making the ride shut down and not cool. We were bummed about that, but it was still fun nevertheless. This post was a bigg'on have fun! Current Music: Blue Turtle Seduction - Antidote | Powered by Last.fm

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April 18th, 2009

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April 5th, 2009

02:29 am - Moo

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